UTP2: The Shaming of the Male Mojo

In middle school growing up in Alliance, Ohio I used to walk to school everyday. On my daily walk I usually crossed a large field and into a narrow patch of woods which stood as a buffer between the field and the College next to it. Sometimes when crossing through the woods I would discover items which a young person really has no business being in contact with such as used condoms, cigarettes, porn, and beer. These taboo objects were very attractive to me not because as a sixth grader I had any idea how and what they were good for but because of the cultural conditioning which deemed these things taboo particularly for a boy my age. Interestingly, anytime I came across fodder for adult good times I always felt a sense of sexual excitement. One day I found a few cans of beer which were no doubt stashed there by some college students who were most likely under the drinking age. Upon finding the beer I felt an immediate sexual arousal, and I of course did not recognize as sexual, which prompted me to open one of these tepid beers to have a taste. I of course thought the lukewarm beer was awful tasting, so I dumped the rest out and then I went on with my day. At the time of this experience I had no clue why it felt sexual, however later in life when I reflected on this experience it did trigger some confusion. How could something non sexual feel sexual?

In Astrology there are certain placements in one's natal chart that point to particular tendencies, and in my case I have a couple different placements which scream "deviant" and by deviant I mean to deviate from cultural norms. These chart placements incline me towards attractions to the occult, the sexual, what's hidden, and investigation... other words a desire to understand what's taboo. I am capable of imagining and understanding almost anything sexually so in a away I'm kind of a sexual empath. My mind likes to go down some pretty uncomfortable rabbit holes and I am always drawn to go where society says no. One of the benefits of Mediation, which I have now been doing for 20 years, is that it allows me to objectively experience all types of sexual acts without the need to actually act out; however this reveals a reoccurring conflict I have with the moral compass of the culture I/we live in. The contractions I felt in the past were largely repressed which meant the taboo would once again rise into my mind seeking a resolution. In my early twenties I tended to act out my fantasies which generally led to lots of unfulfilling sexual exploits and more confusion as to why these scenes continued playing out in my psyche. My sexual mental contortions continued even after I decided acting out wasn't for me, and unfortunately I developed shame about the thoughts which would pop into my head. As my meditation practice deepened I realized a very fundamental principle about the nature of preferences; in meditation we must accept all that rises, good or bad and simply be present with the objects of our perception no matter how disturbing because the repression of a thought or emotion simply feeds energy to the pattern being played out and any expression of the fantasy might lead to a regretful action.

Humans have the innate desire to fit in as we are social creatures. When we don't feel like we fit in or we are looked upon as being a deviant, men in particular, have a tendency to isolate which can lead to bigger issues and depression. When a man is isolated he is missing out on the surge in hormones which make us feel good when we connect in even the most innocent of ways. When we are connected in social ways we experience increases in various chemicals such as dopamine, prolactin, oxytocin to name a few. These chemicals make us feel satisfied in some way which beckons us to repeat the behavior. When shaming occurs we want to curl up into a ball and withdraw from contact which works to our detriment.

It's been said that men are 'obsessed with sex', 'think with their little head', 'are blinded by their hormones' etc... Much of these generalizations are at times very true, however the judgment connected to these beliefs are largely viewed in a negative light. Perceiving male sexual energy or fixation as a bad thing creates within the man a shame and that shame distorts how his life force flows. The Daoists say that men and women have very different strengths. A man's strength is his sexual energy, or another way to look at it is his creative drive. Attacking what's innate in males, our sex drive, as being toxic and the cause of social ruin is tantamount to cultures which attempt to "guide"or control the behavior of the adherents of a particular faith or religion through guilt or fear if there is a misstep or deviation from the core tenants of the faith. The power of shame and guilt to control individuals is known and has been measured by researcher Dr. David R. Hawkins in his book Power VS Force. In Power Vs Force Hawkins used Muscle Kinesiology or Muscle Testing as a way to measure the the amount of energy certain emotions make available for living life. He found that on a scale of 0 (dead) to 1000 (total enlightenment) that shame scored at 20 and was the emotion which scored closets to death with guilt being a close second scoring a 30. Anyone who has harbored these emotions consciously would concur there is a depression of one's life force when we are in shame.

Men in general, because we are all connected collectively, are shouldering the brunt of the shaming with certain groups being particular ripe for attack. Individually and collectively men now must acquire the tools to forgive themselves and others as being the victim is of no true benefit. Fortunately, the authoritarian and knee jerk nature of the shamers is no longer an aspect of a larger dictatorial arm of a religion or totalitarian governing body; meaning that the shame will come and go as fast as news cycles come and go, or cultural trends wax and wane.

When looking through the perceptual lens of a cultural anthropologist at the current cultural hot button subject of "toxic masculinity" you might see the trappings of a pattern that has been repeated over and over again in many different cultures and in many different ways. The current version of culturally shaming fits right into the cultural anthologist's understanding of the Shame-Guilt-Fear spectrum...

"In a guilt society, control is maintained by creating and continually reinforcing the feeling of guilt (and the expectation of punishment now or in the afterlife) for certain condemned behaviors. The guilt-innocence world view focuses on law and punishment. A person in this type of culture may ask, "Is my behavior fair or unfair?... "This type of culture also emphasizes individual conscience " - Wikipedia

Much of the current cultural shame complex is being played out over social media and in the media in general. I feel that the current system of shaming is now very much part of the digital ecosystem we are all learning to deal with. The good thing about this system is that misdeeds are exposed more broadly and at a faster rate which in theory should lead to quicker transformations and reform. In my ideal world there is no reason to shame, but insulating ourselves from shaming does no good because anytime you censor or play the victim card you are essentially delaying the inevitable. Shame is an opportunity for spiritual growth if the individual can perceive the trap of identifying as the victim and can make honest attempts at forgiveness of the self and the other. An individual can repress certain memories and emotions in favor of being busy or for more positive vibes, however this does not erase the existence of the folly in our nervous system or magnetic field and it will drain the body of life force in some way unless acceptance and forgiveness are utilized to further personal evolution.

 The idea of what a victim is in our culture usually looks only at the one who was assaulted. The definition of what a victim now must be more broadly defined. In most systems of belief the victim is the one being attacked, and in some philosophies the victim is defined as being a group or individual with less power, or the ones who must submit to the will of another group or individual. I now propose that the so called victimizers can now also be perceived as victims in some cases. Shame is now used in expedited ways as a weapon to demean certain ideologies in favor of what has been deemed a more 'appropriate' ideology. Historically this was what also occurred in even the most appalling cultures, such as the Nazi's, but also in those cultures which are perceived as more humane such as the Nordic socialist model of shaming those who speak out against what they perceive as rampant immigration in favor of diversifying the populace. Now there are many individuals who are victims of undue shamming for political reasons, cultural morals or elitist world views so it's even easier to falsely accuse and shame individuals without doing the due diligence necessary to hash out the true details of the incident in question. When the media operates on emotion and impulse in an effort to create 'clicks' and ad dollars it leads to new kind of assault and a new set of victims of false shaming.

Since Shame is often used as a weapon I suspect that we will be seeing more of it in the near future, and because of this I feel it's vitally important that we also learn how to transform shame into acceptance, otherwise it could spiral into rage. This is a simple practice, and one which I feel is worth repeating. Since this essay is largely about sexual shame the following instructions will be suitable for shifting and purifying sexual energy. Please be open to the idea that any sexual fixation or fantasy may actually have nothing to do with sex and that the sexual feeling is simply an indication the energy associated with thought is moving through the area of our energy body associated with sex; which is why it's so vital to connect with the the feeling and to be aware of the inner dialog.

1. Think of some aspect of your sexual expression you feel shame about, or remember a time when your sexual advances were not welcomed. This conjuring should be vivid as possible utilizing all your senses. Other than the visual aspect of the mental image was or is there a smell associated... were there or are there sounds... perhaps there is even a taste that forms in your mouth... where in your body do you feel this scene???
2. Now direct your awareness toward your body. Is there an area of the body which seems to have more sensations? Now go deep into feeling and simply allow the thoughts to rise without engaging... connect with this place or places for at least one minute.
3. Now continue to stay present with the body and its sensations. Now cup your genitals... left hand at the testicles and the right cupping the penis from above. Smile deeply into your testicles. 1min... Inhale then exhale
4. Left hand remains at testicles and the right goes to the heart center (the middle of the sternum). Inner smile into your body in general. 45 sec- 1 min. Inhale then exhale
5. Both hands back to testicles.... inner smile into testicles. 45 sec- 1 min.  Inhale then exhale
6. Left hand testicles, right hand heart center. Inner smile generally. 45 sec- 1 min. Inhale then exhale
7. Both hands at heart center; Right over left... smile at the center of the sternum feeling the surface of the skin there. Repeat in your mind "I forgive myself or the other (if the shame is coming from another),  and I accept my thoughts and past actions as part of my growth." at least 5 times
8. Inhale and retain the breath for five-ten seconds, exhale retain out 5-10 seconds... two times. Inhale and clap your hands together over the head.
 9. Now go about your day

- You may need to repeat this process in order for the effect to be long term. Keep in mind it takes 40 days for our nervous systems to take on a new pattern.

Thank you All,

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Unpacking the Penis 1; Vulnerability

When I was in middle school like most young people I had not cultivated control over my speech and it's this lack of filter that created a scene in which I would have the opportunity to experience some of the greatest acute pain I have ever endured. I don't recall what I said to trigger a female student to momentarily despise me enough to cause me harm, but I'm certain it was somewhat deserved. Women really don't understand just how sensitive the testicles are and as men we go to great lengths to protect them. In sports men must where cups, and ask any man who has ever been struck in his manhood about the trauma and his face will absolutely contort and wince. On that day in middle school after blurting out some unwelcome nonsense the female student cocked her leg back as if to kick a soccer ball and unloaded, with her pointy ass shoes, an attack right into my boys. I collapsed knees first cupping my manhood and gasping for air. I rolled on the floor like a pendulum for a good ten minutes unable to even scream or breath. After I managed to stand I hobbled to the bathroom to have a look, and I'll just say this.. there was more than a little swelling. As much as the insecure adolescent in me wanted a bigger penis this was not the way to achieve it. If I recall correctly I think it took about two weeks before my penis once again looked and felt normal.

I feel there is little in a man's life that scares him more than physical threats to his manhood. I've always felt it was God's little joke that men have external genitalia as it seems to humble men and keep us from being to reckless in fear that harm might come to our little man. A man's primary motive force in life is his sexual energy. I'm not suggesting it's sex that's motivating him, even though this is often true, what I am suggesting is that sexual energy is a base or format energy that determines the quality of all life force as it differentiates through the Human Chakra system. Think of sexual energy as the base of the pillars holding up a porch on a house; if you remove the bottom of the pillar the porch will collapse eventually. As an example I will walk on a well beaten path and talk about ejaculation. Many Tantra, Daoist, or Yoga gurus often say that a man looses his root when he ejaculates. This is a rather cryptic comment unless you understand human energy dynamics and the physiological process of enlightenment; which I will cover in blogs to come. In essence what these cultivated individuals are saying is that the process of enlightenment, the path toward wholeness, is all about pressure and it's the very same pressure the man is responding to when he decides he must expel his sperm. The problem is that unlike typical animals the human animal mates when he feels like it or has the opportunity and in modern times this means anytime he is aroused which is seemingly always because of the proliferation of eye candy and porn all over the Internet he can masturbate away the pressure.  Now more than ever men are being challenged by their sexual choices and that challenge is to discharge or not, to have sex or not, to fill ones mind with sexual images or not; and these choices will go a long way in determining how healthy he is both physically and mentally. The very same energy you release when you cum is the energy needed for clear thought, for a strong immune response, for digestion, for exercise, for feeling connected to other humans, for compassion, for more intense spiritual woo woo, etc... Other words, when the Gurus say a man looses his "root" what they are saying is that his interest and feeling of connection with his body diminishes post ejaculation. A man with a full sexual charge is in a heightened state, one that can link him deeply to his body and the sensations it offers. It's this very same self sensual energy which can be redirected, or transmuted, to supply the necessary pressure for him to access other supra-sensory realms of reality such as visions. Overall, how a man treats his body in general will determine how good he feels in his own skin.

A man's vulnerability is not always easy to see because we often compensate with busyness, machismo, or self righteousness. Ways he is vulnerable... include discharge (weakening), sexual images can manipulate his sex drive unconsciously, cultural belief in circumcision and simply possessing external genitalia.  I've already talked a bit about the impact of ejaculation so now I will look at a man's anatomy and the impact external genitalia might have on men physically, emotionally and mentally. The fundamental purpose of the penis and testicles being external has to do with temperature regulation. I'm sure many of you have witnessed how the testicles with rise pulling closer to the body and fall, however many of us have not considered the significance and instead take this life perpetuating feat for granted. When the testicles pull closer to the body it is to warm the sperm and when they droop its to cool the sperm. For sperm to remain viable they must stay about 39.2 degrees F, however on the cooler end of the scale the sperm motility (movement) is lessened considerably meaning that that pathway to the females ovaries is going to seem like a long one. It's been found that the best temperature for sperm to do their work and maintain both viability and motility is at 1-2 degrees F under the body's core temperature of 98.6 degrees F, hence the need for balls that hang outside the core of the body, which unfortunately leaves him vulnerable to accidents or attacks to his manhood.

Circumcision is a very odd practice in my opinion. This archaic practice began thousands of years ago for the purposes of 'Hygiene". I'm not buying it! According to the Mayo Clinic "circumcision makes it easier for a boy to wash his penis" which is an incredibly lame reason to take a knife to a child's genitals. This inhumane act, similar to the clitoridectomy, which most of the world decries as barbaric, is the removal of the child's foreskin which just so happens to contain many nerve endings. My less than thorough research into the reasons why circumcision occurs led mostly well established medical reasoning and shallow religious motives. Looking at the big picture circumcision may actually be inflicting trauma, altering endocrine functioning, and changing how men approach sex. When the foreskin is removed nerves are also removed which not only changes the sensitivity of the penis but also exposes the most sensitive part of the penis to its environment more directly. I found studies which stated that men who have been circumcised have more sexual partners, masturbate more frequently, and even use condoms less frequently (https://www.doctorsopposingcircumcision.org/for-professionals/sexual-impact/). If men are behaving in a more sexual way how might this affect his life force, his feelings of embodiment, and his access to spiritual experiences? As I have previously stated, if a man is discharging his sexual energy too frequently it will have a negative impact on his well being and ability to reach higher spiritual states. So if it is indeed true that circumcised men are more sloppy with their sexual energy then I will take the conspiratorial route and say that the true occult reason for this practice is to reduce a man's sexual pleasure and drive him toward excess sexual discharge and novelty which weakens the man's mind and a weak mind is a more easily controlled mind. There is also some evidence that circumcised men have a form of PTSD that uncircumcised men do not. Personally, when working with a energy healer I received a circumcision healing which, much to my surprise, was felt very deeply for about a week after. I noticed a number of results from this healing including tingling sensations for about two days where my foreskin once was and less physical tension in my genital area. Regardless of how you feel about this procedure keep this fact in mind... nerves are connected to the entire man hence the whole man is impacted mentally, emotionally, and physically; they are intertwined through our whole being, through our central nervous system and hence our endocrine system... there is bound to be a cascade of subtle impacts which affect the whole man.

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